Waiting is the hardest part…..

So I am working on a very cool project that I totally can not talk about.  So we will call it “Project X”.

Project X – is something that I have been waiting to work on for about 7 years. I’ve done a lot of “The Great Portfolio Schlep” – in those years. I am sure my schlepping days are not yet done… but how much lighter is the schlep gonna feel now? – SO MUCH LIGHTER!

I don’t know how Project X came to me.

It is not a connect the dots – straight lines to figure it out kinda situation. BUT it does feel very meant to be. Like “the Secret”- except I don’t believe in that bunco… but who am I to look a gift universe in the mouth?  Thank you Universe! I think a change of attitude and outlook on life had a lot to do with it. The letting go of a lot of baggage.

Project X is – GOOD. What a difference to read something wonderful and to have your imagination explode with images you can not wait to draw!

My enthusiasm is so great- I worry that I may seem a tad, hmmm …  needy?  It’s not the best form to take an Art Director by the shoulders, shaking them, bug eyed- exclaiming..”Do you know how long I have waited for this!?!?!”

(I did not do that)

(cause we communicated via email)

(I did use too many exclamation points in my email tho)

So, before I email I have to tell myself… “Be cool… chill, no more than 3 exclamation points allowed.”

See waiting is hard…. waiting for that first big break. Waiting for that moment when you know you have crossed the line. When you can look in the mirror and say… “Dude- you’re legit.”

So when the waiting is over… there’s a lot of stored momentum.  I am not just potential energy anymore.  I’m motion. I’m force. (like the science references?)

I have been unleashed upon an unsuspecting world…  and art director.

So I attacked my first deadline like a crazy woman with a pencil. I pdf’ed those bad boys… and ftp’d them away with precision and speed………………

……..and now I wait.

Oy Vey! The waiting.

The meetings that have to happen for me to get feedback keep me waiting here perched at my laptop… sketching to pass the time… doodling.. writing book ideas down.. wondering if I should jump to the next dummy….

I killed 2 days doing a post card mailing.

I was sure I would hear today.

Nope.

Sing Tom Petty… sing about the waiting…..  in that weird sucking on a lozenge kinda way only you can…